Christmasness LOVE!!

AHH! Got my Christmas "letter" from Tim today. At least I thought it was going to be a letter...until I saw how big the envelope was. It was a card and had cute stuff in it. Oh my heck he is so flippin cute! Half the card he wrote in spanish and it was so funny. He was explaining what Santa was eating on the front of the card and it was basically a hot pocket but it was funny. And then he called me 'ninja' but meant to niña meaning little girl...then he tried to say 'fail' but said 'fell' instead. Oh it was just cute and hilarious especially when he said at the end "dont laugh to hard". haha And even though I didnt get to talk to him on the phone this was the best present:)
Yesterday I told his sister to tell him that I said to stop hitting on the Chilean girls and of course he says "They all whistle at me" Whatta big fruitlooper he is! But how could they not whistle at him...he is so HOT!hahahahahahah if I could whistle I would whistle at him too.
Its kind of wierd this Christmas because everything I got I somehow related it to Tim...like I got some black patent leather heels and was like OMG Tim would love these shoes(he loves all my shoes) or I got the new Ipod so I was like Tim better not lose this when he borrows it when he gets back or I got a calligraphy set and was like yes now my letters to him we be super pretty!haha Yea my family probably got sick of it but whatever they can dealwith it. 85 more weeks! I Love Love Love him!!!

Christmas Letter/Package

I better get that letter soon!! Im freaking out that it got lost or something...I want it before Christmas!!AHH.haha Im thinking that I miss him lots. Yesterday, I updated our email binder...the binder that has all our emails in it so when we get married we can read how dorky we are. haha and I started getting him stuff for his birthday package. I was going to combine Valentines and Birthday package but they are a month and a couple weeks apart so I will just send him a card or something...he already knows Im his Valentine and he's mine.hehe So...so far I've started making this cute towl to wash his dishes with(he asked for it) I am embroidering Elder Newton on it and maybe some other stuff...im not sure. And I got this crazy tie but he cant where it...mission rules. And hahahah my favorite thing that I've got him so far: A Luffa!! Yea he loves them...And I love that he loves them.lol Whatta silly boy!!
Oh he got my package!! And he loved it!!! He changed his pillow case right away of course and was amazed at how I made it...yea I have skills-NOT!! THe top was all crooked but what ever...he loved it and thats all that matters:) And I used some of the skittles chapstick I sent him so its kinds like we are kissing.haha dorkiness! Yea Love Him forever and Always!!

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He's just so dang cute and I Love him. 599 days left.Amen!lol

My Christmas just went down the toilet that still has poop in it!

Ugh!! Seriously, I just got the worst email ever! Tim just told me he isnt going to call me on Christmas because of his stupid, controlling, no MG, dumb companion. He is only allowing him to call his family for 45 minutes and no more! That means he wont have time to call me and his companion wont allow it. Um hello Im future family!!! Doesnt that mean anything? I do everything for him too. I send him packages, recipes, print out stuff, research things he wants to know,make his scrapbook, and I never miss writing a letter or email every week. Yet I get nothing but knowing he Loves me. Well I guess thats enough but I miss actually talking to him and I have his videos practically memorized.lol I will just have to wait for my tape on my birthday or drive to his house on Mother's day.Idk his family wouldnt like that very much. They dont want him calling me or talking to me at all. Maybe he will surprise me but I doubt it...ugh I wanna cry. Ok actually I did...Today has gone all wrong: no delay start like I thought, had a huge headache all day, got that email, dumb kids who think they are funny, everyone asking me if im ok. If I wouldnt to talk I would tell you about it DUH!! ugh whatever tonight is going to be one of those nights that I cuddle up with Yavon Jr.(the teddy bear he gave me) read good letters from him, spray his cologne a lot and drink hot chocolate.

You've got mail!

Oh yes I do! And Im so freakin happy I do! Did a little mail dance and wahla! Youve got your self 2 letters from Tim and a good letter from the DMV and a bunch of christmas cards from friends!! Yes! ah the letters were so darn cute. Im a "flower" haha only he knows what that means but it totally made me giggle when I saw his pictures he drew! Oh boy I love mail from him more than I love getting good grades! And the cute little poem thing he wrote...jeeze he is just the bestest, cutest,silliest boy ever and if I were to love him anymore no one else could love him so I better leave some room for his family!haha I cant wait til Christmas when I get to talk to him:) Yay! only 12 days! OMG...only 12 days, at least I dont have to freak out about what im going to wear! but What if Im asleep cuz of the 5 hour time difference? uh oh...ok I need to turn my phone up as loud as possible with out song! Ah I just got the chills Im so excited. Ok and ive decided I hate going out in public right now. All those lovey dovey couples everywhere. um PDA much? They could be the least bit considerate to us MG's who cant do that for 2 years ya know? Oh who am I kidding if Tim were here we would be the same way but still I hate having to see that. It makes me jealous...at least I can admit it.haha We finally have snow! Yay but Nay. I love snow but only when there is someone to keep me warm. Its all worth it in the end though. I LOVE him:D

Mail

I was suppose to get a bunch of important mail today including 2..yes 2 letters from Tim. Did they come? NO. Did any of the mail I am waiting for come? NOPE. Ugh waiting for letters suck...especially when they are special letters that has his nametag imprints on them. Dumb Dumb Dumb! Hopefully I get them tomorrow cuz I think my mom coming in and out of the house from checking the mail all the time even though it already came today...im pathetic. Ugh I wish I could magically transport the mail from Chile here...then I would be super super happy. I actually went to school today! I havent gone in over a week...it was way wierd and every kept trying to hug me...and it hurt.lol You would think I would be deprived of touching but NO!! Oh my gosh that one stupid girl wont leave me alone...she come up and like pets your arm then touches your hair then puts her head up to yours. Gosh seriously I want Tim to touch me like that not you, you freak!! Ewww she is so icky. When we try to avoid her, i swear she like hunts us down. Ugh! Well on the brightside...i have 2 letters to look forward to tomorrow. 2 letters full of Love:)

Not so good...

So yesterday and today officially suck... I have been having really really bad chest pains. To the point where it hurts to breathe and to move anything to quickly. So I went to the doctor's today and he gave me a more powerful inhaler and a steroid-powder inhaler. Dumb asthma. I dont think thats the problem though. Ugh I cant drive, go to school,basically do anything except write Tim letters. Not that, that is terrible but I have other things I have to do too! I cant sleep because it hurts too bad so im exhausted. My mom thinks its anxiety and stress since I went to being so happy with Tim to losing the person I talk to everyday and talk to him once a week. Gosh, I really wish he was here right now... I just need to sing me a wierd dorky song like he use to. I just want to cuddle up with him and he can kiss me and tell me everything will be okay. I hope this crap that they gave me works. Ugh I just need to hear his voice! Omg...Im gunna go watch his videos that him and his friends put on youtube...that has his voice.haha yeah im a dork but it will have to work until the Christmas phonecall!! Ah I cant wait. I also found out that his grandpa has cancer and they only gave him a little bit of time to live...I hope he is ok! and on top of that he told me his family doesnt write him very much, yet his mom says that Tim hardly writes them. AHHH! Ok everyone just write eachother more...problem solved.(sorry if Tim or his family reads this) but at least he will always have letters from me and can write me letters...the perfect penpal!lol Ok enough blabbing...still LOVE him and cant wait for my 2 letters coming this week!!

Twilight/ Four christmases

AHHH! Twilight= soo good! Of course i bawled through the last half cuz i totally know what its like to be apart from the one you love! And when Edward said,"I will make it all better, Bella" Oh my gosh i totally lost it. Thank goodness that Morgan cries as much as me at movies so I dont feel like a freak.haha but it was sooo good:) I wanna see it again and again! Total Mg movie. Oh and Edwards jacket! Holy crap...I am getting one for Tim as soon as he gets back! Its so dang cute and Tim will make it look AMAZING! Ah I can just picture him in it now...ok gotta stop that. Ok I also saw Four Christmases! The beginning is totally something me and Tim would do!!!!! Pretend like we didnt know eachother and like we just met at the bar and act really crazy and rude to eachother then start kissing and come out of the bathroom together then look at all the crazy wierd looks we get from people.haha I cant wait for him to get back so we can do that:) oh joy! I went christmas shopping for him today. Gotta love Black Friday! I would say what he got but...he might come on here and peek so I cant. Sorry babe!! I found a cheaper and faster way to send his package so I dont have to send it til tomorrow and there will still be plenty of time for it to get there! I want him to open it right now! Such fun presents. I am making the cutest bag right now...its a black tote bag that has the chile flag on it and says Santiago on the top and W4AM on the bottom and on the back it says Elder Timothy Aaron Newton. Its pretty cute so far. Still in the process of making it though. Dang I Love that boy. And his family even though I still dont know what they think of me now...that they know the truth:/ But they will have to deal with me for forever so I hope they dont hate me...Im too afraid to text them or call them now.lol i will just wait for Tim to tell me what they say. Hes amazing...I Love Him!

Email DaysXD

Mondays= My favorite day of the week!! Oh jeeze his email today...was the best yet!! It just cleared up every question in my mind about our future. I actually didn't cry when I read this one(big suprise I know) before his emails...well we had some complications. It was stressful wasting out emails on trying to figure out our relationship and what we want but now everything is for sure. Im waiting the full two years for him. Ive made it 103 days already! Plus, there is no point in me not waiting because in the end I know it will be him. I dont know how he made me fall so hard for him but he did it. My friends know mondays are my email days so they always ask how he is doing and whats new. I also got a letter from him last Thursday. That made me cry. I could just feel the spirit and his Love in it. One of our seminary lessons the other day was about how we all have different obstacles in life and I couldnt help but choking up because every scripture we read are ones that I read when I am missing Tim. My favorite is D&C 121:7-9. Him being gone has made me want to be stronger in the church. I want to be able to have a chance against him in scripture chases, know all the stories in the scriptures, have a stronger testimony. He is doing so much for the church that is the least I can do. I remember one time a couple weeks before he left we went to Red Lobster( i hate seafood but told him i would go because i Love him) and our waitress was a really nice lady in her mid 40s. Tim tipped he well but I felt like she needed something more. So I pulled out a passalong card and stuck it behind his credit card. Tim just looked at me and smiled. She took the bill and we waited to see what her reaction would be. She came back with bill and a HUGE smile on her face...she said,"Thanks for the card. I will defianetaly check it out." We both felt so good after. I still wonder about her and how she is doing but I guess I will never know. To think that Tim does that everyday...I cant imagine how overwhelming and strong the spirit is. Him being a missionary has made me a stronger person too and I can not be more grateful for him. All the more reason to Love him:)

Still waiting...

3 months and still waiting. Sorry to tell you, most of you lost your bet. Yes, I still love him. Even though he is almost 3000 miles away. I go to bed thinking about him, wake up thinking about him, dream about him. Everything still reminds me of him...Fig Newtons, the color green, movie theaters, skittles chapstick. Distance makes Love stronger. Our Love will be stronger when he gets home in 21 months. He is everything: My boyfriend still, my Love still, my best friend still, my Yavon still, my dork still. Age doesn't, well shouldn't, matter. Its just a number. Im lucky to have found Love so young. We were a total accident... two friends who liked eachothers bestfriends. Didnt need a serious relationship at the time. But you cant stop Love. When we were together you could see it, we just worked. We are the 2 biggest dorks. Seriously, what other couple would paint their faces green and wear foil hats just because they wanted to walk through an airport pretending they were aliens? Yea Tim really is my other half. Talking on the phone everynight puts the true meaning into "your voice was the soundtrack of my summer" All the memories we have are framed like photographs in our minds. I will never forget our last night together...watching the sunset on a watertower. I brokedown and couldnt believe the time had actually come for him to leave. Yet, he still cheered me up by singing the goofiest song about our Love. Then the airport. I officially hate airports. In 21 months I will love them but that day, I relive it everyday. Our last kiss, our last touch, our last "I love you" in person. And of course i will never forget the suppose to be secret butt grab by him but his little brother saw. haha watching him go through security and walk away...I counted the steps he took til i could see him no more. 34. All our letters, emails, packages still show our Love. As much as I Love Him, there is no other place I would rather have him be. The people in Chile truly are blessed to have him teach them the Gospel to them. Im so proud of him and know he will be the best missionary he can be. Only one month til I get to hear his voice again!! He is worth waiting for...I Love him. End of story.