I FREAKING HATE MAIL PEOPLE RIGHT NOW!!

My letter is a week late!!! UGH
I need that letter more that anything right now.
Especially since its a "Valentines Edition"
What more do I need than a letter from Tim bearing his heart and soul about how amazing I am and how much he Loves me and wants to marry me.
Last night I was so emotional. I cried myself to sleep...ok sobbed.
And my I <3> pillow got all wet.
I think the pain meds combined with PMSing made everything 10X worse.
I mean who breaksdown when they see a car that looks like their mish's?
me.

The 6 month and Valentines Day

I cant believe its been 6 months!! It has gone by so fast but slow at the same time! Officially a Sophomore:) I remember when I first messaged Cassie on facebook and joined the MGs...it seems like forever ago. But without that group I would be a mess for sure! Thanks girls:) only 541 days left!
Valentines day...full of drugs and old ladies popping out of mailboxes! I havent gotten my Valentines letter yet but Im pretty sure I will get it today! and Tim will get his book of Love I made him either today or tomorrow! That book took forever! But it is soooo dang cute. It has pop outs and a bunch of things you open and a ton of different quotes. Each page had a theme like a kiss page, a page that said 'I love you a hole punch' spelled out in those little circles from hole punching. at the end there was a ruler I mad that went up to infinity and It measured how much I love him. oh and I made this girl that was suppose to be me out of paper with accordian folded arms so when you open that page the arms pop out and it says 'I love you this much!' He will Love it. Ah I cant wait for him to get it and for me to get the letter! LOVE HIM!

Lovers Him MORE:)

Its been Forever since I have last written...just a friday night with nothing to do. Next weekend will be like that too...dumb wisdom teeth. Gosh I freakin Love Tim. And his dumb exgirlfriend is driving me insane!! Adding pics of while they were dating? seriously! and asking his mother for his address? UGH! This is what Timmy said about it:"Yeah about Becky, all the stuff she is doing... Yeah I send the update to her but that is it, I have not written her or talked to here personally!!! She knows you are my Girlfriend, and well I havn´t written her any personal e-mails, so know that I am not doing anything!!! so just ignore it babe it doesn´t matter." i obviously knew he wasnt writing her or anything but I swear she is just doing this to torture me! Not to dwell on that, He is so dang cute with his worrying about getting me presents! haha he was freaking out cuz he couldnt buy me a valentines day present because his area has NO stores! And he was like "I feel so bad cuz Jason got Cassie this **** ******(bleeped for Cassie lol) cuz he lives in Santiago with stores. But I did write you this amazing letter that you will Love." I cant wait for my birthday...tape AND a "surprise"! I just love him so much:) And I just bought an I <3 My Missionary Pillowcase...and I have started looking at Return with Honor Rings. Except I need to find out his ring size...all I know is he is a size 'big' lol really big. Anyways Im excited...hopefully wont be the last time for ring shopping:) Love him!

Best Conversation Ever...

E~Erin
T~Tim

E:Knock knock!
T:Whose there?
E:Olive!
T: I know this one already!
E:So...
T:So why are you telling me this joke?
E:Cuz its true.
T:Whats true?
E: I thought you said you know this joke already!
T:I do but I want to hear you say it.
E:Well fine! Sine you totally just ruined my joke and forced it out of me...Olive you!
T:I didnt force it out of you!
E:Yes you did! Oh I see, You dont Olive me. *sad face*
T:Why do you always twist around what I say?
E:See!! You dont Olive me!!
T:I do too Olive you!
E:I know*giggles*
T:You're a brat!
*kiss scene* A While later...
E:I like putting olives on my fingers and pretend Im a monster!
T:Your such a dork!
E:So are you, silly! You better watch out or else the olive monster will get you!
*Erin attacks Tim*

Sometimes I Wonder...

What the H im doing... How can I wait for someone for 2 years and not know FOR SURE that it will all work out? Why would I waste my high school years waiting for one guy? How the heck am I going to do this without totally breaking down just seeing Fig Newtons because they have his last name on it? But then I think about him, about us, about everything we did, about how we acted together, about how comfortable I am with him, about all the sacrifices we made for eachother, about the first time he said I Love You to me, about how much he means to me. Right after he left I kept going back and forth on whether I should wait for him or not...one day it was yes the next day it was no. I couldnt decide and all he said before he left was "It doesnt matter because I know I can win you back over when I come back. If not I will kick his butt." I hate to say it but it was a hard decision for me. Then finally one monday, we were emailing and I told him everything I was feeling and deciding whether or not if I should wait for him or not. I WANTED too but didnt know if it was the right thing for him...then he said "I feel like you might need space, but writing in my journal and praying about it when im not praying for my investigators , it just feels right and well here I have learned more than ever to trust my feelings, and yes one of those feelings is to have you wait for me." AHH I felt like crawling up in my bed with my teddy bear from him and squeezin the crap outta him! It was such a good feeling to know that he has been praying about it too and now I know it was the right decision and I cant imagine it any other way...He is the my one and only love.

UGH! Dumb, Stupid, Ugly, Stalker Ex girlfriend.

So im pretty sure that I wanna kill Tim's ex. Seriously you guys have been over for like 2 years! He doesnt love you he love's me. You cant comment on his pictures and say that you miss him when he didnt talk to you forever. You better not be writing him letters cuz if you are I will pretty much boob punch the crap outta you. I didnt think it would get to the point where I would have to delete you from his friends but im totally thinking about it and then blackmailing you. ok not blackmailing but ugh SERIOUSLY!! Stop already...

ummm....Ok???

Tim is a dork and confusing and I wish I could talk to him so he can explain himself better...... I write too much but I dont write too much where I distract him but he doesnt read fast enough so he prints stuff out and 'I need to calm down' because I think out loud in my letters and emails to him and he is really behind because of Christmas but he only writes me hand written letters and not his family but his family comes first in email and so I need to stop writing so much so he can actually reply to them in his email time?????? "Erin, you just need to calm when you write me because you think out loud and you talk about your life and EVERYTHING" well am I not suppose to talk about my life? Only about you and whats going on in Chile. OK! Psh make up your mind boy! Im sooo flippin confused! AHHHHH!

Oh I know in my next email to him I will say "ok I wont write you much anymore" and thats it.hahaha No he would freak out and get mad at me for being a smart ass. Even though I am the biggest smart ass he knows...he should be use to it by now:P