Not so good...

So yesterday and today officially suck... I have been having really really bad chest pains. To the point where it hurts to breathe and to move anything to quickly. So I went to the doctor's today and he gave me a more powerful inhaler and a steroid-powder inhaler. Dumb asthma. I dont think thats the problem though. Ugh I cant drive, go to school,basically do anything except write Tim letters. Not that, that is terrible but I have other things I have to do too! I cant sleep because it hurts too bad so im exhausted. My mom thinks its anxiety and stress since I went to being so happy with Tim to losing the person I talk to everyday and talk to him once a week. Gosh, I really wish he was here right now... I just need to sing me a wierd dorky song like he use to. I just want to cuddle up with him and he can kiss me and tell me everything will be okay. I hope this crap that they gave me works. Ugh I just need to hear his voice! Omg...Im gunna go watch his videos that him and his friends put on youtube...that has his voice.haha yeah im a dork but it will have to work until the Christmas phonecall!! Ah I cant wait. I also found out that his grandpa has cancer and they only gave him a little bit of time to live...I hope he is ok! and on top of that he told me his family doesnt write him very much, yet his mom says that Tim hardly writes them. AHHH! Ok everyone just write eachother more...problem solved.(sorry if Tim or his family reads this) but at least he will always have letters from me and can write me letters...the perfect penpal!lol Ok enough blabbing...still LOVE him and cant wait for my 2 letters coming this week!!